firecracker coming undone.

the moments that make you realize how amazing God really is are the moments that i wish would be on repeat forever. oh believe me, i know God's love for me is beyond words that i can even say, but it's the moments that give you chill bumps, bring you to your knees and make you cry because his love is that powerful is what makes my heart beam x09822746.

this past sunday, i was in a situation where i had seen something that i had tried so hard not to see for the past three months. one of those moments where your stomach turns to knots, your eyes automatically start welling with tears, and you would do anything to turn back time for just two minutes so you could choose to take a different path. i started praying, hard heart felt prayers and  begged God to let my body be stronger, to handle the obstacles that i know i'm going to have to face. obstacles that i know are going to make me just want to cry my eyes out and rewind time. 

i text my friend rdj,  and just started venting. my thumbs were texting like a race horse. "why do i put myself in a situation where i knew this could happen? why in the world do i let it bother me as much as it does?" i parked my car, and let all of my emotions run free. (i'm pretty sure the kid who rode by on a bicycle probably thought i was absolutely weird for having a breakdown in public.)

i was mad, upset, hurt, and confused. my mind was completely in left field, and i got a text message that read the following:

"all i can say is that my preacher told us this morning that the key word in life is "next." If something bad happens, move on, don't dwell on it. there's nothing you can do about it cause it's the past. whatever happens next, make something good out of it."

the words i exactly needed to hear. my eyes filled with tears again, i felt God's love take over my whole body. this is one little bump of this amazing journey he has me on, he's blessed me with amazing friends who know exactly what to say at the right time. the "next" step of my journey is one that will bring me one step stronger. 

thank you rdj.

"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect." -Psalm 1:32

and happy valentines day :)

a wall full of gum.

you know the weekends that are jammed packed full you cant seem to catch a breath, but you would do it every single weekend all year long? well, last weekend was most definitely under the "can't catch a breath, do it every weekend" category. 
let us recap:

i was reunited with my best friend. and beanie.

we made brownies at one in the morning. and yours truly got in trouble for eating the batter.

stayed up till four in the morning watching videos and pictures from our younger days when we thought we were hip and cool.

like this...

march, 2008.

after two hours of sleep, i woke up at 6 to go to the state wide Young Life leadership conference with the county's Young Life leaders :)
two words, a blast. and we met up with our best friends Sidney and Thomas! who are YL leaders in Rahhtown.

"hey, you have a car. you have yourselves, come to raleigh!" stated sidneylee and t.yo, so guess what mals, tyler c, and myself did saturday night? :)

raleigh bound.

-ate us some amazing noodles & co.

-ben and jerrys & starbucks

-the game of things.

-waffle house.

my friend's are absolutely awesome. 

and unexpected plans to take a road trip last minute makes everything better.

thanks for the memories.

day five; a picture of your favorite memory

i have a trillion, so here's a few...

numerous beach trip with the best friend.

numerous lake trips with the best friend.

summer of 2009.

homecoming court with four of my best friends.

this day.

adiós twenty ten

in the year 2010 I... 

became a legal adult.

attended my senior prom.

finished the 49th edition of the east wind, with an amazing yearbook staff.

walked across "the" stage, with a diploma in hand.

bought my first scratch off ticket, and won $3.

watched all of my friends move off to multiple colleges.

became a freshman in college.

read two books in two days.

gained a greater love for Chris Brown, Jason Mraz, and John Mayer.

became the mother of a beautiful black lab, kye.

found a love for skeet shooting.

realized that i do in fact, want to live in a big city during my life time.

experienced my first broken heart.

ate a whole box of honey buns in a 12 hour period.

gained a new best friend.

figured out what i want to be when i grow up.

realized i'm addicted to facebook.

had two of my best friends get engaged.

I know God has an amazing 2011 planned for me, i'm so excited.

just a few selected recaps..

nutshell.

Christmas two thousand and ten.

instead of having numerous post about the Christmas festivities, i thought i would put it all in a nutshell.

[december 20th] 

Christmas party! there's nothing i love more than friends and food all under one roof celebrating Christmas with one another. pure love.

(photo credit to tylerc)

l to r: j.dogg, yours truly, marcie, hunts, leah mae, jay, tylerc, sam, kels, joe, tyler obes, travs.

hunts.

catch phrase intensity.

[december 21st]

the gift.  

so my best friend c.r.marti and i spent one evening doing nothing but watching criss angel stunts and tutorial videos.  & we saw an advertisement for the "criss angel mindfreak ultimate magic kit."  i mean just the way it sounds sounds unbelievably awesome.  so of course we're flippin' out wanting to buy it and play with the "over 500 magic tricks and levitation instructional dvd,"...how cool. so me thinking about how i don't have his Christmas present, i ordered this bad boy and had it shipped right to my door.  well, lets just say the instructional book is pretty much a foreign language, but the props were pretty cool. exhibit a...

we've already gotten 3 tricks down. i was pretty impressed.

[Christmas day]

Christmas morning. Santa did an awesome job.

the camo toms :)

the grub.

nothing better than a fire...

& a white Christmas.

And the angel answered her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy–the Son of God. 

 -Luke 1:35